its all about me :D

So this is abit of a whim setting up this blog even if no-one reads it it’s a place for me to rant & express my new life with a frustrating chronic illness & pretty much the rest of my life too.

I’m Keely I’m 29 (big 30 in february) I’m mum to Ben who’s 12 (yes I was young) and Jacob who is 10.Stepmum to B aged 13 (as known in blog posts) I’m also a fur mum to whiskaas and tubby (Instagram- tubby_the_maine) both aged 7 😻. Partner to Simon or the man child lol.

So my journey started on the 16th of September with back ache which stopped me from walking well or far which started snow balling very quickly trip to hospital in an ambulance with lack of answers until fybromyalgia was mentioned which I was a walking advert for … felt like my life had been taken from me a life of pain isn’t a life trying to be a mum and a partner just wasn’t working.

A happy medium is beginning to be met now apart from continuous pain, fatigue & the fact a bath knackered me out. Ive found a good doctor who has sorted my meds that i am now having more comfy days than bad days but still not my old life.

I try to blog every day sometimes more than once you lucky ducks i do try to be funny lol & i swear alot wooops lol πŸ˜€

Fibromomma29 πŸ˜šπŸ’œ

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Doing the truffle shuffle πŸ€£

**a weight post**

Well I was 10st 7lb in July 2017 shocking huh 🀣🀣 I worked so hard for my loss gained abit back but still at the gym 4 to 6 times a week well fast forward to Jan 2018 and I’m wait for it 13 stone 😲😲😲 I’m 5ft3 so if I grew 7inchs i’d be supermodel standard but I’m not πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ so this week after the “family” fat shamed me a bit I’ve cut down not been 100% like I know I could do but not snacking on shit anymore lots more fruit etc yeah I’ve had a few biscuits lol 🍩 ” fridge pickers wear big knickers ” goes round my head. I’ve not had chocolate since Saturday ( 13.1.18πŸ’ͺ) it is one of my goals in cbt to lose the weight I’ve always been a yoyo dieter quite bad since having the kids so no “baby weight excuse” any more.

But size 12 I’m a coming for you I’m totally having good food in a few weeks for my birthday … you don’t turn 30 every year now do you lol … Still stuffed with cold so maybe that’s helping as I’m not as hungry as I usually am I’m feeling less bloated all ready in 6 days I do have one thing as day which isn’t amazing but it’s too lush my all bran cerial with some sugar … I loved loads of sugar so I’ve cut down majorly wooops I’m that girl that used to have 6 yes 6 sugars in her tea πŸ™ŠπŸ™Š

My rolls are disgusting me now (I’m hoping to look back on this post and be repulsed) I can’t do some of my back stretches because of my back fat WTF I’m like one of them puppies with all that extra skin but there really cute I look kinda beach whale (it’s defo the lack of height) I have next to nothing to wear either coz my chub rub has taken my jeans out πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Anyway enough weight moaning lol I hope I can look back and say “fibro can’t beat you again”

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ

Life is expensive right ?

So we aren’t rich both on benefits etc due to medical issues but live gets more & more expensive and having 5 people & not 4 anymore seriously adds on the cost just being 1 person with her eating issue we have brought one or two bits that she likes to eat as anyone would.

Shopping this week was Β£120 quid then Β£10 petrol then something else then Β£20 gas & elec. He brought me a 3pound batman alarm clock & stupidly a McDonalds if we were so tight he shouldn’t have but now we are struggling to get gas & elec now we have elec meters & not a bill & all works online. We get paid next week thankfully & We will sort something but the cost of life is just far too much these days I remember days of panda pop’s for 25p & polos for 20p now there both closer to a pound 😲😲

Little one does his taekwando but my mum pays for that & hopefully we will get some help with my stepdaughter being with us etc but makes you think of other people that love on the streets I mean we have a house a roof over our heads we are safe from others & the weather what are they safe from nothing is it always there fault of cause it isn’t ok sometimes it is but not always you read story’s of war hero’s being on the streets as no-one can help them. I might be moaning but we are really lucky.

Health update while I’m here… crappy still cold is attacking my chest my fibro is kicking my fat ass so hard lol all the “points” are playing up neck wrists ankles knees hips everything ahhhhhhh roll on next Saturday to see the doctor.

Best dash for now

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ

Colds & fibro dont get along πŸ–•

Oh my days I’m feeling worse as the day progress’s which sucks 11.20pm I shattered but I know my body isn’t going to let me sleep I can’t breathe out my nose I am hoping for a nice restful sleep but fibro is flaring everywhere because I’m hurting from having a temp I’m so grateful to the man child for giving me this shitty cold in the 1st place lol.

Last week was a bloody ear infection I’ve only just finished my anti b.s. 🀣🀣 & it’s all kicking off again my immune system is so shit it’s unbelievable… I moaned about the flu jab when I had it but I’m darn glad I haven’t got the flu 😊

Tomorrow’s plan is to stay in bed resting all day long we’ve got the panto Sunday & I don’t want grandma and grandad to catch it that’s not fair so I hope couple of days sleep & rest will do it πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ

Social service chat πŸ–’Β 

Well over 2 hours of talking it went well I don’t think the home life was as bad has been described but aged 13 life’s hard right ? All the hormones and lack of support will mess with your head up alot (my depression started aged 13 so kinda talking from experience) mum apparently is supportive now the shock & anger has subsided she’s going to see her tomorrow for a few hours so hopefully things will be easy for her if not she knows where we are to get her at any time she need. 

Never had any experiance with social before & she was really lovley and understanding she only wants what’s best for B. I don’t believe for a second that they were shocked that she decided to stay with us as it’s been something she’s wanted for years … the social worker wasn’t as shocked as she could of been how did people not understand what this child wanted she was screaming out for attention she was drinking fluids that should never be consumed by humans that screams to anyone who has a heart. I wasn’t keen on the fact the blame is mum’s “mental health” sorry but as a mother with complex mental health issues you DON’T bring the kids into it ever !! It’s your issue not a young child’s at all. But the first thing she said when she walked in was you look well now that is a plus point right she’s been with us a month now & I wish I had taken a picture when she 1st came to now it’s unrecognizable. She got most of her stuff minus her money boxes which she asked for but never came.

All in all it went well school have also got intouch with the new school & hopefully she will be going there in the next few weeks πŸ–’.

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ

And now I can stop πŸ’ͺ

Hanging washing at 11.30pm is a moms life right lol the man child is seriously slow at transferring washing from one machine to the other πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ he did loads of house work today for tomorrow’s visit 😫 I am allowed to go back to bed after sending boys off to school thank goodness I do hope I feel better tomorrow Mr man flu passing it on I’m still really really cold which is making my hands really sore & curled over.

It’s now 12.30 am and I should think about sleeping but struggling to calm down too sleep πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ head is still banging away it really didn’t help with the tree surgeons chipper going on the afternoon 🀣🀣 

Fingers crossed for us tomorow guys social workers coming to see us & step daughter hopefully bringing her stuff down & sorting a few minor details out 🀞🀞 

Sweet dreams 

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ

Yesterday has killed meΒ 

Oh good grief yesterday’s activity has completely wiped me out I feel awful Mr man flu has passed it on to me so feeling really rough with that as well as fibro killer migraine a bladder of a 90yo a throat like sandpaper ears ringing & throbbing oh god fibro & illness together just take me now πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚.

So social workers are coming tomorow about B staying etc see where shes staying making man child clean the place I did from top to bottom them 4 trashed it so I’m not rehelping lol  I’m not a slave 😊😊 

Still not talking to the wicked witch she’s really annoyed this time I tell you what life is quite without her moaning & changing mood it’s brilliant. 

Of to the panto with grandma & the boys on Sunday we booked the tickets ages ago so B can’t come we got the last 4 tickets & we won’t tell wicked witch because she will go off see what I mean about her πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ.

Day 4 – no chocolate 🍫πŸ’ͺI did have a macdonalds but hey salad for tea lol 

Best let you go moaned enough sorry guys will be back with my non moaning humour soon lol

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ

Cbt was coolΒ 

Well all went well at cbt today was more of a meet and greet & to set some goals.

  • Lose weight to get into my bridesmaid dress πŸ‘—
  • Getting a better sleep pattern 
  • Be more active πŸ’ͺ

So while I was in town I cracked on with a few jobs booked a doctors app for next weekend …. picked up a prescription thankfully as I really needed my amatriptaline ran out a few days ago & back started spasaming the day after. Went round the charity shops to find me some jeans no such luck I got a pair they dont fit 🀣🀣🀣 they will but not yet lol got eldest a thor tshirt and youngest a pikachu πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ 

Making a cheesy potato pie with bacon & onion for tea … did Sainsbury’s today too for food shopping got loads of healthy fruits 😍😍 passion fruit maybe my new favourite fruit lol 😍😍I’m quite sore with my back but I’ve managed it today I feel like I’ve done loads today & I’m knackered tbh lol but all went well πŸ–’πŸ–’

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ 


Could be there all day πŸ€£πŸ€£

So I googled “ what to expect at cognative behaviour therapy ” and this popped up (see picture lol)  well I could well be there all day lol bar the divorce I have all the rest lol πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ.

I’m really hoping that I get new learning strategies how to get thru every day a little easier .. the pain side of fibro I mean the 24/7 throbbing agonising skin burning pain has passed but struggling with the brain fog irritable bladder stiffness hearing headaches and fatigue is overwhelming.

May try book a doctors while I’m in town so I can lip read lol I did ‘re order meds tho so should pick them up in a few days time πŸŽ‰ my brain is fried at the moment say the wrong words stumbling etc I’m hearing a little more but still lol. 

Will update on the cbt tomorow and how long I was in there too 🀣🀣🀣 hope you have a wonderful day & or night 😊😊😊 

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ 

Sleep is for the weak πŸ’ͺ

Went to bed at 9 wasn’t going to sleep then but got comfy etc man child has man few so his breathing sounds like a meowing cat in distress (I’m not even joking) my ears have become clearer so heard all of that couldn’t sleep til about 4/5am then the next minute I’ve missed 4 of my 6 alarms and it’s 7.08am my eyes are burning like a camp fire my body is swearing at me my dear 12 year old forgot to remind his useless memoried mother he had food tech so at 7.50am I’m trying to find the biggest potatoe in a bag of big potatoes & grate no more than 100gs of cheese and find somewhere to put 20g of butter so it doesn’t melt over his books then minutes before he leaves he decides he wants syrup porridge for breakfast ….. give me a break ffs 🀣🀣🀣🀣 …. so ive crawled my sore self back into bed to write this then attempt some sleep next to weezy mcwheeeze…. the “sleep” I got last night I think I dreamt it I don’t think I got any and I didnt nap  yday either …. start my cbt cognitive behavioural therapy tomorrow afternoon πŸ–’πŸ–’ looking forward to that tbh don’t know what to expect but looking forward to it …. my mood is greatly improved so far too don’t feel as het up as the last few days so hopefuly it passes still not talking to my life giver she’s really got to me this time telling me how to mother a child she has no darn idea about crossed a line Ben cries at the drop of a hat she fell for it poor Ben all the time the kids fine he’s 12 & has a chip on each shoulder you know to even out abit 🀣🀣🀣🀣 anyway I shall leave you now I hope your days are as awesome as you much love 😚😚😚

πŸ’œ fibro momma πŸ’œ 

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