1st WordPress birthday πŸŽ‰

I can’t believe it’s been a whole 12 months of ranting moaning and maybe sharing a bit much …. followed by lots of slagging off & angry blog posts 🀣🀣 this is my favourite safe space where I can write what I want without worrying of a backlash, coz you know daren’t upset anyone 🀣🀣…

2018 June to November

I will do December as a single piece with a list of things I’ve learnt this past year 😍 June Boys stayed at nanas for 2 nights they did allsorts of things car show space museum pizza you name it they most probably did it πŸ˜‚ me and Simon enjoyed some much needed alone time…

2018 Jan to May πŸ’œ

I have soooo many pictures I may need to do one just with pictures lol no pics til end of Feb when I started my new Insta πŸ’œ January Well January started well Shannen had decided to stay with us so we started adjusting the house for her especially clothes etc as she pretty much…

Housework & greatest showman πŸŽͺ

Yesterday we went to do some shopping I was exhausted after ward I climbed into bed til 5pm 🀣🀣 I really needed to do that pre Christmas tidy up so I did the kitchen 1st took ages sorted all the food cupboards out threw away out of date stuff put things back into order my…

Doctors 14.12.18

Sooooo today’s app went really well got to stay on the butec 5mg for 2 more weeks then got the 10mg ones she said give it a bigger chance as I’ve not seen much of a change tbh still be in a stupid amount of pain. She thinks my knee is more wear and tear…

2018 round up ☺

So I’m going through the blog for past posts and I’ve gone through my Insta accounts to see what we’ve been up to this year. Allsorts & nothing really I am going to get it all pieced together over the weekend I’m not promising it will be any good but I can’t remember what I…

My baby turns 11

Doesn’t time fly hey I remember the day he made his arrival after I slipped on my mum and dad’s loo seat (one of the hinges wasn’t attached) Sunday was in the hospital trying to get the Labour going but when it did my goodness it did he was busting a move until my waters…

πŸŽ…πŸ€Ά

So just over 2 weeks to the big day we are pretty much done , all presants now with there owners. Most presants are now with us not a great amount which is awesome the boys mainly have money , vouchers , or small gifts there older so don’t get the amount they used too…

Favouritism again

It’s a darn contest at times …. I’m the disappointing one & the light shines out my brothers arsehole. I can’t afford to much we both can’t work so we try our best with gifts etc sometimes we just can’t do it. They moan there skint but there taking the parents to a gig and…

Just a random 😊

Got sent the link to the wedding photos today …. I got really pissed all the other bridesmaids were taken outside before for photos but not me I’m just in a few it was pointless to me being one but my dress is pretty and it saved me from being even more exhausted so I’m…

Life is fun ! Right ?

🀣🀣🀣🀣🀣 December as always bundles our house in illness grumpy kids birthdays and just the normal shit show before the 25th 🀣🀣🀣🀣 So kids are grumpy its getting cold & wet and they’ve been at school all of 4/5weeks so they break up a few days before the big day so they’re hard to wake…

Crunchy knees πŸ’œ

Absolute agony again …. my heads become a lot clearer and the thought of harming myself has now passed still down but not wanting to hurt myself which is fab. Fed up of being so ill and the 3 people in this house not give a fuckedy fuck about me no help as usual stinking…

Doctors day

Well after a 20minute odd appointment with my doctor I’ve been moved off zomorph & put on patches instead as she really didn’t want to keep pushing up the zomorph if by 30mg they weren’t working they wernt going too. I explained that I feel very really suicidal in thoughts and want to hurt myself-…

My head hurts πŸ˜”

So for no particular reason I’ve snapped into a horrible suicidal thoughts depression … writing it down helps… I don’t know why it’s happened I would never harm myself either but my head hurts so bad it physically hurts from the shitty thoughts. I really hope tomorrow hurries up that I can’t get some proper…

I don’t think there working πŸ’ŠπŸ’Š

So I started zomorph 4weeks ago first 2 weeks at 10mg morning & night went back to the doctor because the pain was intense to be upped to 20mg morning & night well a week later I put it up to 30mg …. well yesterday I forgot to take my morning 30mg slept most the…

Thanks Simon 😑😑

So I turned my Tele off about 10.45pm fell into a lovley slumber til about 1am til knobhead aka Simon decided it was his bedtime he’s the noiseyst fucker getting ready for bed then lays on his phone with the light blaring in his face 10mins later he’s snoring annnnnnnd I’m wide awake 😑😑😑 then…

Overtime 🧠🧠

So I can’t stop thinking about B now in fairness …. Simon spoke to the social worker and asked this question “How many times does someone have to try and kill themselves for you to act??” Question on everyone’s lips right ? She needs to go to a safe ward at a physc ward where…

Drama again

So after the screaming at me on the phone the other day Shan tried to throw herself infront of a train …. Was placed in a physc hospital & is being released at some point soon. She has also started taking recreational drugs at the age of 14. Where on earth is her mother while…

Speak of the devil πŸ‘Ώ

Well B rang I don’t know why I’m still hiding her name Shannen rang acting like the big I am when I said her dad wants nothing to do with her she asked why I bust out laughing and said your having a fucking laugh you don’t know what you’ve done she is absolutly oblivious…

Bite me πŸ‘…πŸ‘…

Oh it did 🀣🀣🀣🀣🀣 So I woke up on Tuesday with a small sore spot on my right arm so I popped it woke the next day it looks like a crayter today’s it’s bigger and badder lol someone suggested a ant bite I said that it couldn’t be I’ve not seen an ant since…